Long Time Gone

Its been forever since I have posted anything on here so I will start now.

Surgery went real well as I said before, except about 2 wks after surgery I got what is called a stricture. What happens is the opening that goes to the new stomach gets swollen and closes up. I wasn't able to keep anything down! Not even water or ice chips. I had to go in and have the Dr open it back up. He said it was so closed a pin could barely fit through! I lived like that for 2 wks. I have done much better since tho and am feeling WONDERFUL!!

I have lost almost 60lbs and went from a sz 24 to a sz 16 and am continuing to get smaller! Its so weird to do little things and notice the loss. Like driving, my car seems so much bigger and the steering wheel is so much farther away! Bending over is not as breath taking as it was before. I am not in pain when I walk or run! It feels amazing and its only going to get better from here!

Everyday is Better Than the Last!

Today was probably the best I have felt. Of course I said yesterday was the best I felt. Everyday gets better and better.
I has my drain tube removed yesterday. It wasnt as bad as everyone had made it seem. I didnt feel a thing (I am also a freak of nature that pain pills dont work and I once had 2 of my wisdom teeth removed with no novacaine because it didnt take and I had to go get my kids form school). I can tolerate most kinds of pain. Labor.....not even close to being able to handle that! Thats a whole other story tho and I am babbling.
Anyway...,
I go see Dr tomorrow and he will remove my packing and all the little steri-strips and stitches from my abdomin. I have 6 incision spots that I am told are looking wonderful and I should have little to no scaring! *Whoo Hoo!* Not that the scars matter. Im not tossing on a bikini any time soon.
Im excited to get back to working out with weights. I LOVE TO LIFT WEIGHTS! Something about a strong, muscular chick that I dig. I also grew up with 3 older brothers so that might have something to do with it..lol.
Its funny how your world slowly changes. I have had some people turn their noses up at me, and others who embrace me. I have made some new friends, and will potentially lose some. No matter. This was done for me, no one else. I know being fat was not what made me the wonderful person I am. I have always been pretty great! My heart hasnt changed and I really dont believe it will. Im already full of myself =0)

Im gonna make it!

Its the day after the surgery and I actually feel pretty good. I heard such horror stories about the day after and I must be one of the fortunate ones. I am sore for sure but not as bad as I expected.
I have gotten up and walked, which is my favie thing to do! I know everyday is going to be better than the last so I am looking forward to a week from now..lol.
My IV exploded in one of my arms this morning so that kinda sucked, I had saline just dumping into my tissue instead of in my veins so my arm is swollen and bruised. Its all good tho.
I am on small sips of water every 15 mins now or I can have Jello. Its so weird that Jello never tasted so good! Its honestly even weirder that I am not even hungry. I havent eaten in 2 days and am not hungry. Of course I dont really have a stomach anymore so I cant really expect to be.
I know everyday will get better. Everyday I will be able to do more. This will all be a didtant memory soon and I will be well on my way with my new life.

It will only get better from here!

Today is the big day! Surg at 10am. Getting ready to go now so this will be brief.
I am not nervous for the surgery itself, just the unknown.
I have been a "Big Girl" my whole life. I am the president of the Fat Kid Club. I have only ever known being "Big" or "Thick" or "Chunky". Today that all changes. I am looking forward to the nickname "Slim" and have it actually be true! Wish me luck! I will post more about wonderful day before surgery when I got a little time, but for now Blogland.....,its go time!

Wow...

I cant believe I am so close to my surgery date! I feel like I have waited for this day for so long. I have done everything that was asked of me with a smile! I did not cheat (although I wanted too...lol) and my husband says he is so impressed with how strong willed I am with this. Amazing that I found will power. I pushed myself through a very difficult 2 wk liquid diet! I lost 20lbs so far. I cant wait to weigh in before my surgery and watch the numbers drop and know that I will NEVER SEE NUMBERS THAT HIGH ON A SCALE FOR ME AGAIN!!!

Lets Say It Together...PROTEIN

Turns out you need protein for a lot of stuff. This is the staple of this process. You need protein to help you feel full and not so tired. There are also lots of other reasons for the protein that I am aware of but these are the 2 I have been struggling with these past couple of days. I could not figure out why I was so tired and all of the sudden starting to feel very hungry. Turns out I am not getting enough protein in my daily diet. Here I thought I had it all figured out, but when you work 2 jobs and are on the go almost all day and forget to grab a protein drink or "food" (meaning Jello) for later you really cant get in all the protein you need. I worry this will be a bigger struggle for me after I have my new stomach. Hopefully I will have all the time I need to figure this out.

5 more days left!

Im Halfway There!

Officially one more week and I will be going under the knife! I have lost 12lbs since my weigh in with the Dr and I feel good!
I had a break down the other day because a person can only handle so much jello and protien drink before they start to go mad! I wanted Tuna fish with lemon juice. No idea why, I just wanted it! I wanted it so bad I probably would have killed someone to get it! I had to talk myself off the ledge so to speak with that one. Thanks to the help of my BFF/Husband I managed to get through it. Im almost there.